Saturday, June 4, 2011


How can I say I am fine when nothing's fine
How can I care when everything I cared for isn't here
How can I sing  when I have lost everything
How can I be strong when I am bleeding my life out 
How can I say I am happy when happiest moments of my life were all fake 
How can I be intelligent when I have always been victim of deceit and betrayal 
How can I feel belonged when I don't fit anywhere
How can I tell my darkest fears when I know everyone will mock
How can I say I am awake when half of my world is asleep 
How can I dream when I fear closing eyes shutting out all memories
How can I feel love when I am stone-cold
How can I code that not even ruins remain of highest wall ever build
How can I say I don't even know or remember who i really was 
How can I state coldness, darkness & solitude as my best friends forever or worst enemies forever
How can be my life a more hell
How can this cloud's destruction lead to even darkest night darker than eclipse
How come it was me ,
Why me of all 6 million people
Just answer why? 


Lost in symphony of hell ,
Lost in literary world ,
Lost in world of people,
Lost in  web of  kinship,
Lost in coldness of night,
Lost in darkness of atmosphere,
Lost in solitude of what my life has become,
Lost to cold-heartedness

Will I ever be found again?
Will I ever be recognized again?
Will I ??????????