Thursday, October 18, 2012

Abuser/Ravager




Gazing out my window
Didn't know 
And then it hit me out cold
It was you ,ravager                 

Reminiscing your pretense on bike  ,
Conjuring up memories of your physique 
Then ascertaining it with dark figure of man
Only to find it true              

(Memories)
My breathing stopped  , hopes lost
Pain racing up my veins 
My unheard voice begging him to stop
Too fazed by shock and fear 
Couldn't figure out  a way to save me 
A very close shave with death
Thus Falling off  
The last straw was me on floor covered with tears , lies , injuries 
Darkness encompassing all of them
                                
Gazing out my window     
Didn't know 
And then it hit me out cold
It was you ,ravager 

Back to now , 
My hands trembled and lip quivered 
And work before me seemed an eternity away
Tried to lay back and went to sleep for reparation

Next thing I know is Dad waking me up
Telling me it's time back for chores
Blinking and shielding my eyes away from light
Couldn't  pinpoint the discrepancy between nightmare and reality

(Memories)
For the abuser held me so strongly in his roots
Bruises encased  my arm and face
For on that night ,it dawned on my soul

I had lost the battle 
Lost the world I created
Lost my integrity and true self
All at hands of egotist


Gazing out my window
Didn't know 
And then it hit me out cold
It was you ,ravager