How can I say I am fine when nothing's fine
How can I care when everything I cared for isn't here
How can I sing when I have lost everything
How can I be strong when I am bleeding my life out
How can I say I am happy when happiest moments of my life were all fake
How can I be intelligent when I have always been victim of deceit and betrayal
How can I feel belonged when I don't fit anywhere
How can I tell my darkest fears when I know everyone will mock
How can I say I am awake when half of my world is asleep
How can I dream when I fear closing eyes shutting out all memories
How can I feel love when I am stone-cold
How can I code that not even ruins remain of highest wall ever build
How can I say I don't even know or remember who i really was
How can I state coldness, darkness & solitude as my best friends forever or worst enemies forever
How can be my life a more hell
How can this cloud's destruction lead to even darkest night darker than eclipse
How come it was me ,
Why me of all 6 million people
Just answer why? 
